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Behind Closed DoorsWe stumbled on to something
without trying to seek it
But now that we have it
We're trying to keep it a secret

So when everyone's around
We try so hard not to make a sound
Our heads are lowered
We keep looking forward
To not look into each other's eyes

We try to act like strangers
To keep ourselves from dangers
Try not to grab attention
Don't need anyone to mention
That this facade is full of lies

Don't want to be a topic
People would like to discuss
No need for conversations
People talking about us

Holding this emotion back
Until it overflows and pours
You and I will always be
A love that exists only behind closed doors

Behind these WallsHello my son
I wonder how you have been
Not many news come from outside
In this cell that I'm in

But I'm hoping
That you have been fine
Can't recall since I last saw you
It's impossible to keep track of time

Despite all that I've sent you
There's been no reply to my letters
Are you ashamed of your father?
Is it because I'm chained by these fetters?

I miss you, son
I miss your sisters and your brother
I've been missing all the little things
Like waking up each morning to the smile of your mother

The news did reach me, though
That you're about to have a daughter
I hope you've grown as a better man than me
Its the only wish I

My last angelI'll confess...I'm not Strong
I breakdown every time I hear our song.
And I know that I was wrong
I couldn't prove to them that we Belong

Yeah..I'll confess
That I fucked up...I'm a Mess
There's no words that could help me express
That this heart's filled with distress

But what can I do..If I no longer have you
Even if I beg to your god..the past isn't something that I can Undo
And I wish, from the start...that I knew
That I was a sky....that was loosing its blue

Who would have known that I'd be so empty.
that there was so many things that could easily tempt me
think back to what was wrong with us..I'm sure you'll think of Plen

If I write you a songEveryone is talking
About how you want to make it big
That you want to be a Rockstar
That you've already booked a gig

You've always been so beautiful
But never content with who you are
Think you deserve to have the spotlight
And to be married to a Star

They say that you want someone
who'll sing for you in front of the whole world
Who'll dedicate you all his lyrics
Who will scream you were his girl

What if I wrote you a song?
will it change the way you look at me?
I wonder if it'd take me like long
Can I use this love to form the perfect melody?
Use the rhythm that you give my heart
A fast tempo like the way you make it beat

Couldn't Save MeMama if you find this
It means that it's too late.
I've fallen into death's abyss
I'm free of the life I hate.

Mama, this is my goodbye
Everything I've felt, till now, here in this note.
I wish I could tell you bye, looking in your eyes
But after this I plan to slit my throat.

Its ok, mama, some of us were born to fail.
Its what I've come to realize
Not every life's a fairy tale
But they'll keep feeding us those lies

Lies we're told so we keep trying to succeed
And we'll try till we're beaten and we're broken
We'll fall, we'll bruise and bleed
But the sorrow that we feel will stay unspoken

Well mama I'm already beyond shattered
And I hav

The End of the WorldI'm tired of hearing
"Its not the end of the world"
That I need to cheer up
That "she's only a girl"
But these people don't know
That I've tried to move on
But these feelings won't go
I don't like faking a smile
With every "Hello"
But goodbyes are the worst
Every time I feel like I'm cursed
I know that I overreacted
When you said that I wasn't your first
But you lied
And that's when I realized
That what I thought was divine
For you was just another time
Inside It felt like I'd die
I was enraged and I cried
But now that I've lost you
I'd die to again say that you're mine
So please look at me now
Say that we'll make it somehow
That you'll love

YesterdayYesterday, life seemed to be going
In every direction
With many up and downs
Still to be considered perfection

No thoughts of growing up
Only had you in my vision
No responsibility or worries
About making a bad decision

It was so perfect..wasn't it?
Just laying in the grass
Holding on to your hand
Just watching the days pass

Yesterday was magical
There was happiness and bliss
Only breaking silence
When we gasped after a kiss

We never needed words
Everything could be felt with just a touch
The caressing of your skin
Told you I needed you so much

Was yesterday prefect only for me?
Was I enjoying it by myself?
Tell me why d

Can You Heal My HeartPlease don't leave me alone
But don't stand by too close
I'm scared of the silence
I'm being haunted by ghosts
The past lives in my head
Displaying where my problems arose
Walking down the same road as my father
Is what I'm scared of the most

Never had someone to guide me
Someone who'd show me the path
The only lessons I've had
Showed me to be controlled by my wrath
Little by little
Its been eating at my heart
But who needs to feel
When I'm only embraced by the dark

I need to rub alcohol on all my wounds
So I'll press this bottle to my lips
Every shot is medication
That helps my thoughts become eclipsed
I'll use my pills
To turn my brain a

I'll wipe off your tearsTrust me when I say this, everything will be alright
I’ll be here, to comfort you every moment of your life
Cry on my chest if you like, only if it lets you feel right
Because I will always be here, right by your side

I know some things can be unexpected,
And sometimes the bad can’t be evaded
But I’ll try my best, so you can be able to rest
And I’ll try my best to relieve you from stress

Because I care too much to leave you with pain
It tears my heart to see you like this again
You’ve told me to step back, but it's too sad and tiring
I promise you, this will be the last time you’ll be crying

Roses For the DeadI couldn't help but fall to my knees
Seeing your body in there
Laying still in the casket
I cried and didn't care who would stare
The pain in my chest
Kept growing harder to bear
Like a growing hole in my heart
Felt like my skin was starting to tear

Your face looked so different
From the one I that I knew
Your skin was so pale
It was cut..it was bruised
Your lips had turned white
with a few hints of blue
But the birthmark on your cheek
Made it clear this was you

Now I keep seeing your face
The way it looked when you died
It chases me through my dreams
Leaves me no place to hide
I know I could have saved you
If I would have listened or trie

Do You Remember?Do you remember that poem you wrote me?
Well, I found it the other day.
It was in my jacket pocket.

I didn't know one piece of paper
Could bring back so many memories.
It's amazing how long it has been
Since you gave it to me.

I am thankful that
I had you in my life.
All the good and bad times,
They made us that much stronger.

Thank you for coming into my life.
Thank you loving me.
I couldn't have asked for anything better.

So you see what a simple
Piece of paper with words on it can do.
It made me remember why I cared so much.
It made me remember you,
So thank you for writing it.

Cupid's RevengeWhats with me?....I just can't get rid of this frown
And this sorrow keeps swimming in this liquor...and it just wont seem to drown
Proclaimed to be the King of this game...but I've seem to of lost my crown
Because every time I decide to give "Love" another shot..I keep getting shot down

Maybe Cupid is mad for all the hearts that I've Broken
Maybe his wrath is What I have awoken
Well It seems that his goal is to make sure that my heart becomes shattered
And make sure that all the pieces are scattered
Maybe that's why He wont let me have any girl that to this heart actually mattered

The one girl that I love is becoming estranged
And

Blame it on the RainI'm looking out my window
just seeing the rain fall
Trying to hide my phone
to fight back this urge to call
And all the memories
of us playing in the rain
start to flood my brain
As the rain starts screaming out your name

As I'm looking there outside
I can see your silhouette
I know you're not there and yet
You look just like the day we met
Oh please tell me Juliet
Why can't I forget

Blame it on the rain
Blame it on my brain
Blame it on life
being full of pain
Blame it on these eyes
for always seeing you
Blame it on me
For all I've put you through

Blame it on the rain
Blame it on my name
Blame it on love
driving us in

Hating to Love youLife goes by
Its nearly the end of October
Eleven months since you left me
And I still can't seem to keep sober

Drink after drink
Living off of intoxication
Can't mend this broken heart
But its the best medication

Holding on to the past
Feels like I'm stuck in one place
Still being haunted by your voice
And that last look on your face

I'm starting to hate
Everything I once loved about you
Like the thickness of your lips
And how your eyes would shine blue

The sound of your voice
The accent when you'd pronounce my name
What I really hate
Is that no one can pronounce it the same

I hate that I love you
And can't seem to forge

Backstabbing LoveI woke up in the middle of the night,
I was alone, moved searching for the light.
I grabbed my phone and had the screen shining
Bright. Then I noticed a note in the form of a text,
saying that you'd left to get back with your Ex.

What happened next I can't recall except I
Threw my phone against the wall. It
Shattered like you shattered my heart,
Now I'm alone, alone in the dark.

Turned my hand to a fist and started
Punching the floor and though I felt
The bones breaking, I kept punching it more.
Because nothing hurts more then this
Heart you just tore. How dare you just
Leave and go back to him, is this how you
Repay me, leavin

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A hole in the ground, a layer of dirt
And a man given the job to protect from turmoil
Those little plants; keep them from hurt

He trades vows with mother earth
And a seed he starts to sow
Waiting patiently for a bud to be given birth
And promises to water and watch it grow

As days go on and sun beats down
Turning the man's neck red
Moving along to his whistling's sound
The plant's leaves start to spread

But something changes in the man
swears this isn't the plant he was asking for
Says he won't water it any more
And treats it like a burden on his floor

Days turn to weeks which turn to a year

If tomorrow I don't Wake upI wonder what would happen
If I was never to wake up
Would people even care
I wonder if a commotion would erupt

Would anyone even notice
That I wasn't alive
Would my mother even mourn me
Or could she guess that I wouldn't survive

Well I'm still not dead
But I can barely call this living
I feel like a corpse
That hasn't given up on breathing

But I wonder what would happen
If I was actually to die
Would anyone be bothered
Or care enough to cry

Maybe everyone's just used to
Me living like a corpse
So no one would be bothered
Or life change the slightest off of course

But if I would never wake up
There's no way to know what

Word Has ItWord has it
That you're getting married
With one on the way
That our past you have buried

They say you always smile
That these past years have been kind
You never show sadness
The past wont ever cross your mind

You'll finally get that family
We once dreamed of and always wanted
But I bet this isn't the future that you dreamed of
That your conscious is still haunted

I remember how you smile
When you're keeping a facade
I bet at night you cry
And start swearing to your God

I remember when you're angry
It never shows up on your face
That you bury it inside
And keep that smile in its place

How can this not be what you wanted

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Missing You

by ~IINegativeII, Dec 4, 2012, 3:43:28 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Since I woke up today
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.

It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.

I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.

So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".

But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.

Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you'd been drinking
I should have forced you to stay

And today,
is the anniversary of your death.
I've been trying not to think of you,
But I'm crying, still short of breath.

I take out my wallet
Where I still hold your picture.
Wondering if I'll meet you soon
Thanks to this pill and liquor mixture.

But I feel nothing
I've been drinking this all morning
My heart still hasn't given out
The only pain comes from this mourning.

Are these pills not good?
Is this liquor not enough?
Is the only thing that hurts me now
When I think about you, love?

I miss you
I need you and you're not here
I'm about ready to pass out
And repeat this all next year

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=minninnewah Mar 30, 2013 Student Writer

It's very powerful when you realize that she's dead rather than having just left. I do hope that this isn't a true story, and if it is, I'm very sorry

I like the rhyming as well as specific parts:
"liquor mixture" sounds cool to say out loud.
"And repeat this all next year" is a powerful end.

As for grammar, in poetry it is not necessary to use proper grammar. However, it is better to be consistent, to either not use it or use it properly throughout. You have some lines with no commas or periods, and some parts that are written as if they were proper sentences. It would look nicer to choose one or the other and keep it consistent.

~IINegativeII Apr 8, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

U know u are the nicest person that has ever critiqued my work
I like u the most

lol

I had originally intended this to be a cliche story about the girl leaving the guy
but then i thought..it would be better to make it a more permanent departure.
Its not a true story at all.

i liked saying "liquor mixture" too. lol
I made him act the way i would..if i were to ever lose anyone that close to me.
and..i think thats why people..think this might be a true story.

i suck at grammar
like i said..im jnot good at writing
i've never studied..i really dont know how.
I just do what i can :c

~ParvuAndreea Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist Filmographer

You're kwite god

Why don't you try to publish them in a book ?

~IINegativeII Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Thank u very much

I do Have a book...selfpublished.
Its sold on amazon...but..im not sure if its sold on ur country.
But it also sells on itunes....and soon on android.

though..it mostly has old poems..
not this one.

~ParvuAndreea Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist Filmographer

Ah I see

~IINegativeII Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Yeah

I'd ask u to check it out.
but i really have no confidence in it xD

~ParvuAndreea Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist Filmographer

Mh? wait ,wait...

I don't get it what to check out ? and in what you don't have confidence...:"?

~IINegativeII Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

my book xD

~ParvuAndreea Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist Filmographer

oh I'm back on track..but..but..I don't have money to buy it <

and you did not teld me haw it's named

~IINegativeII Jan 11, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Haha
no,...no
please dont worry about buying it.
its Called
"The Thoughts of Nobody"

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