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Forgive me Father...for I have Sinned
I denied you....And let myself get lost within
Tried to pretend your blood wasn't in me
But right now it just keeps begging to be set free

It was this blood that always kept me strong
Every time a person left...it was what let me move along
Well...Maybe it's more like...I pushed them all away
Maybe this blood remembers...that every one will eventually betray

So tonight I'll let it out..and I'll follow in your steps
I'll have anything and anyone I want..just like you had always meant
Maybe that's the reason that you cursed me with this gift
Yeah..I can make anyone fall....at the price of my own heart becoming stiff

So I'll get lost in the lust..and throw the pain away
Whats the point of feeling love...if in the end nobody will stay
So let me be like you...and throw away my life, dad
Ensuring that I die alone....to prevent anyone from being sad
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Tsukiko1516 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
yet another great poem =^-^=
great job bro
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks a lot :)
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TheKaibutsuQueen Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Outstanding, but really quite sad.
Don't lose hope. There's people out there who will love you forever.
All this pain is hard to take, I understand.
But in the end, it'll be worth it.
Call me stupid or whatever.
But I still see light in this world.
And I've gone, and still am going through a lot.
And there's more to the world than love, man.
Adventure!
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks a lot
and i know there is more to life than just love
but meh
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TheKaibutsuQueen Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I hope you're not being sarcastic when saying that.
And really. You are young. No need to rush to find the one to love forever. You will never find them by looking. Let them find you.
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
u say that..like if u are older than me.
and...i wasnt being sarcastic
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TheKaibutsuQueen Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Well, of course I'm not older than you. I just.... I don't know. I guess I just look at life with a brighter light. Can't help being optimistic. It's just me.
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
humph
well..Im negative.
hence the name. lol
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TheKaibutsuQueen Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I understand. But maybe I can help just a little.
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Maybe :)
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sunnySIDEofME Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Photographer
This is beautiful and sad at the same time.
I can see myself there and my hurt, over my dad. Kinda slap into reality...
Thank you for this is different, honest, and really a masterpeace from you.
My fav from this acc!!!!! :love: :tighthug:
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Ohh really?
well thanks a lot
I'm glad u like it.
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sunnySIDEofME Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Photographer
Yeah I do.
But at the same time, I'm kinda scared, when you wrote that you might turn out like your father.
And maybe, just maybe so will I.
Anyway, beautiful, seriously!
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
well yeah..
i know
it scares me too
thanks
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sunnySIDEofME Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Photographer
But when I think this way.
Every person is on it's own.
And you can turn up to be whatever you want, if you just have enough will and courage.
But still there is this other part of you...
DAMN YOU MANNY, this poem just got me all emotional :D
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
lol
sorry this poem...wasn't meant to be like that..really.i mean.
its just.
I deny my father a lot
i have never wanted to be like him.
but..things in life...seem to be pointing..as if..being like him..is all i have left.
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sunnySIDEofME Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Student Photographer
I totally get you. I din'tm mean it in a bad way Manny.
It's just scary how you can talk with your poems, but you are afraid to speak outloud.

And yeah my "father" (I don't even have one actually-my mom raised me alone) is a piece of sh*t too, if that helps :)
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i know u didnt....lol
yeah..
poems..are the words from my heart..that i cant speak out loud.

and...i wasn't really raised by my father either
he is...well
rotting in jail
right now
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CanUSpellMyName Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Please tell me....that this is "Just" a poem......
And not more, with meaning...
Because it's scaring me...
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Maybe..Maybe not.
who knows.
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CanUSpellMyName Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
-_- Don't gimme that crap.
You know me all too well to make it that vague.
Tell me!! :c
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Why would I have to tell u?
U should know me well enough..to know the answer already.
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CanUSpellMyName Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Just wanna make sure I'm not eh....."assuming"
Besides, I could be the same way.
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Well u can assume as u wish
I really dont know why it would "scare" u
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CanUSpellMyName Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Lol this mood.
You should know me well enough to know why it would.
Anyways, you're not in the mood for this, so I'll be on my way now :)
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Well.....its this time of year after all..
I wont be in a good mood for at least 2 months.
and then there is also being sick and dying..and lack of sleep.
but well do as u wish.
I somehow knew u would contact me here..soon enough..
even if we are meant to stop talking.
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crystalkitten1682 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012
yeah, the last stanza's so good :D
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
really
i didn't think it was.
but thank u very much
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crystalkitten1682 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012
you're welcome :D
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I was actually contemplating on deleting this. lol
I wrote it in the middle of the night
and when i "woke up" (have hardly slept in days) I read it..and saw how horrible it was...lol
but.meh
its gotten a few favorites..so its ok
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crystalkitten1682 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012
oh i do that...i wrote a poem at about 4 in the morning a few days ago. read it a few hours later, after i'd had sleep, and was shocked by how bad it was! even more so when i remembered i was happy with it when i wrote it XD
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
haha
yeah..i just..dont have much to write about now.
I used to come up with some of my best lines before falling asleep
I always sleep with my phone...so i would write it down..and be amazed in the morning. lol
but..
now...i have...like..no inspiration
i feel..like Ive lost.my touch...in this writing thing..
everything i write is so horrible.
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crystalkitten1682 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012
awww
i have a journal for my novel, and i always have it with me, so i just write stuff i come up with for it in the journal
i'm sure you'll get your muse back soon! i hope i do too, probably after my exams are done though...
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
haha
well maybe..
who knows.
Maybe..If i fall in love and get broken hearted again..
i'm sure i could have so much to write about then. lol
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CuddleSlut17 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Very well writen. The last stanza just pours out sad yet true. With the [ What's the point of feeling love if no one will stay. I very much relete. Nice work as always :)
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks.
yeah...
glad u like it.
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CuddleSlut17 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Your welcome.
I really don't think I'll read a piece from you and absolutely dislike it :)
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IINegativeII Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Ohh that sounds like a challenge
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CuddleSlut17 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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