Mama if you find this
It means that it's too late.
I've fallen into death's abyss
I'm free of the life I hate.
Mama, this is my goodbye
Everything I've felt, till now, here in this note.
I wish I could tell you bye, looking in your eyes
But after this I plan to slit my throat.
Its ok, mama, some of us were born to fail.
Its what I've come to realize
Not every life's a fairy tale
But they'll keep feeding us those lies
Lies we're told so we keep trying to succeed
And we'll try till we're beaten and we're broken
We'll fall, we'll bruise and bleed
But the sorrow that we feel will stay unspoken
Well mama I'm already beyond shattered
And I have given up on life
I've already lost everything that mattered
Up to now I haven't lived, merely survived
But mama living hasn't been good
This ist the third time I try to kill myself
It's been a week that I haven't had food
This liquor keeps me alive but ruins my health
Mama I'm going straight to hell
I wish that you could save me
Pick me up like every time I fell
Hold me and say I'm still your baby
But there is no one who can save me
When I'm my own worst enemy
God has always been against me
Death awaits me eagerly
Please forgive me
I'm sorry I'm not strong
Just know its all on me
Don't think you raised me wrong
This is goodbye
I know its you calling on the phone
Please try not to cry
When you find me once you're home