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The End of the WorldI'm tired of hearing
"Its not the end of the world"
That I need to cheer up
That "she's only a girl"
But these people don't know
That I've tried to move on
But these feelings won't go
I don't like faking a smile
With every "Hello"
But goodbyes are the worst
Every time I feel like I'm cursed
I know that I overreacted
When you said that I wasn't your first
But you lied
And that's when I realized
That what I thought was divine
For you was just another time
Inside It felt like I'd die
I was enraged and I cried
But now that I've lost you
I'd die to again say that you're mine
So please look at me now
Say that we'll make it somehow
That you'll love

YesterdayYesterday, life seemed to be going
In every direction
With many up and downs
Still to be considered perfection

No thoughts of growing up
Only had you in my vision
No responsibility or worries
About making a bad decision

It was so perfect..wasn't it?
Just laying in the grass
Holding on to your hand
Just watching the days pass

Yesterday was magical
There was happiness and bliss
Only breaking silence
When we gasped after a kiss

We never needed words
Everything could be felt with just a touch
The caressing of your skin
Told you I needed you so much

Was yesterday prefect only for me?
Was I enjoying it by myself?
Tell me why d

Behind Closed DoorsWe stumbled on to something
without trying to seek it
But now that we have it
We're trying to keep it a secret

So when everyone's around
We try so hard not to make a sound
Our heads are lowered
We keep looking forward
To not look into each other's eyes

We try to act like strangers
To keep ourselves from dangers
Try not to grab attention
Don't need anyone to mention
That this facade is full of lies

Don't want to be a topic
People would like to discuss
No need for conversations
People talking about us

Holding this emotion back
Until it overflows and pours
You and I will always be
A love that exists only behind closed doors

Roses For the DeadI couldn't help but fall to my knees
Seeing your body in there
Laying still in the casket
I cried and didn't care who would stare
The pain in my chest
Kept growing harder to bear
Like a growing hole in my heart
Felt like my skin was starting to tear

Your face looked so different
From the one I that I knew
Your skin was so pale
It was cut..it was bruised
Your lips had turned white
with a few hints of blue
But the birthmark on your cheek
Made it clear this was you

Now I keep seeing your face
The way it looked when you died
It chases me through my dreams
Leaves me no place to hide
I know I could have saved you
If I would have listened or trie

Can You Heal My HeartPlease don't leave me alone
But don't stand by too close
I'm scared of the silence
I'm being haunted by ghosts
The past lives in my head
Displaying where my problems arose
Walking down the same road as my father
Is what I'm scared of the most

Never had someone to guide me
Someone who'd show me the path
The only lessons I've had
Showed me to be controlled by my wrath
Little by little
Its been eating at my heart
But who needs to feel
When I'm only embraced by the dark

I need to rub alcohol on all my wounds
So I'll press this bottle to my lips
Every shot is medication
That helps my thoughts become eclipsed
I'll use my pills
To turn my brain a

Behind these WallsHello my son
I wonder how you have been
Not many news come from outside
In this cell that I'm in

But I'm hoping
That you have been fine
Can't recall since I last saw you
It's impossible to keep track of time

Despite all that I've sent you
There's been no reply to my letters
Are you ashamed of your father?
Is it because I'm chained by these fetters?

I miss you, son
I miss your sisters and your brother
I've been missing all the little things
Like waking up each morning to the smile of your mother

The news did reach me, though
That you're about to have a daughter
I hope you've grown as a better man than me
Its the only wish I

Missing YouSince I woke up today
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.

It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.

I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.

So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".

But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.

Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you

Leaving the Nest(Daughter)

Daddy....this is so hard for me to say
feeling darkness within long days...
My tiny hands tremble...
thinking how to assemble...
these words without being afraid.
For the longest time I've been this empty shell.
Been dealing with my personal hell...
Tried finding another man's love....
given up on the game.
Now you've found another.....
When you look at her what do you see?
Because looking for too long....
in the end you're losing me

(Father)

Please give me your little hand
I know right now this is hard to understand
Let me wipe the tear from off your cheek
I know right now you feel so weak
Maybe things are going

If I write you a songEveryone is talking
About how you want to make it big
That you want to be a Rockstar
That you've already booked a gig

You've always been so beautiful
But never content with who you are
Think you deserve to have the spotlight
And to be married to a Star

They say that you want someone
who'll sing for you in front of the whole world
Who'll dedicate you all his lyrics
Who will scream you were his girl

What if I wrote you a song?
will it change the way you look at me?
I wonder if it'd take me like long
Can I use this love to form the perfect melody?
Use the rhythm that you give my heart
A fast tempo like the way you make it beat

FatherI Hate You
That's the first thing you have to know
You've been gone most of my life
But your presence just doesn't seem to go

Your influence still haunts me
Like you're a ghost here that lingers
It hurts and it hinders
Feels like our lives
Are still wrapped around your fingers

I walk through the house looking down
Hoping for some sort of protection
Trying to avoid all these mirrors
I don't want to see my reflection

Because I look just like you
And when I look I just want to hurt myself
Breaking all these mirrors
Cursing your blood that runs through these cells

You're behind bars
dying in there on your own
I wish I could s

Mankind's Defeat (re-upload)I look out into the crystal blue
And I scream into the sky
This salty emotion streaming from my eyes
And the only sign of life is a struggled 'why…?'

But..I'm not dying..even though inside it feels like I am.
I'm torn and broken...and left as the empty shell of a man.
And Im left stranded...living inside myself..
I've thrown away my wealth...and have lost complete regards to health.

Every simple part of me is falling apart
And I fall to my knees in despair
Inside me is becoming a non-existent heart
And it seems as though I've breathed my last breath of air.

But who needs air..when I've got my despair
Life's never been fair..

Word Has ItWord has it
That you're getting married
With one on the way
That our past you have buried

They say you always smile
That these past years have been kind
You never show sadness
The past wont ever cross your mind

You'll finally get that family
We once dreamed of and always wanted
But I bet this isn't the future that you dreamed of
That your conscious is still haunted

I remember how you smile
When you're keeping a facade
I bet at night you cry
And start swearing to your God

I remember when you're angry
It never shows up on your face
That you bury it inside
And keep that smile in its place

How can this not be what you wanted

Hating to Love youLife goes by
Its nearly the end of October
Eleven months since you left me
And I still can't seem to keep sober

Drink after drink
Living off of intoxication
Can't mend this broken heart
But its the best medication

Holding on to the past
Feels like I'm stuck in one place
Still being haunted by your voice
And that last look on your face

I'm starting to hate
Everything I once loved about you
Like the thickness of your lips
And how your eyes would shine blue

The sound of your voice
The accent when you'd pronounce my name
What I really hate
Is that no one can pronounce it the same

I hate that I love you
And can't seem to forge

Mask (Re-upload)For how long can I wear this Disguise
The hate is building inside
but can you see it through my eyes
I may wear this smile
but this face is full of Lies
My heart cries
and as it drowns in its own tears of sorrow
it slowly Dies

The beating slows...ends and moans
And gradually the glow...fades
A sudden depth of abyss and a certain roaring, a hiss
The pain, the lies, the hate, all surrounded by death's kiss

Clawing, eating, tearing away
Making it's way....through my skin
You should have known me, full of sin,
a shadow being, claiming to be me...only in cast
Behind this God damned mask

But who is me, if all I am
is who this mask

Love is WarThey say love is a battlefield of war.
We want someone special and nothing more
Feels like an endless chore.
Can we spot the difference
between the normal and the special
someone who can take us out our shell
And make our hearts feel like we've fallen to a spell

Love is pain
That drives us all insane
A battlefield where instead of blood
Tears fall like the rain
But it's pain so unlike the usual
when we find the perfect person
an experience that's so beautiful

We all need someone to teach us how to love
someone who can give us mini heart-attacks
until our heart can't take enough
Leave our hair standing on its tips
every singl

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YesterdayYesterday, life seemed to be going
In every direction
With many up and downs
Still to be considered perfection

No thoughts of growing up
Only had you in my vision
No responsibility or worries
About making a bad decision

It was so perfect..wasn't it?
Just laying in the grass
Holding on to your hand
Just watching the days pass

Yesterday was magical
There was happiness and bliss
Only breaking silence
When we gasped after a kiss

We never needed words
Everything could be felt with just a touch
The caressing of your skin
Told you I needed you so much

Was yesterday prefect only for me?
Was I enjoying it by myself?
Tell me why d

Behind these WallsHello my son
I wonder how you have been
Not many news come from outside
In this cell that I'm in

But I'm hoping
That you have been fine
Can't recall since I last saw you
It's impossible to keep track of time

Despite all that I've sent you
There's been no reply to my letters
Are you ashamed of your father?
Is it because I'm chained by these fetters?

I miss you, son
I miss your sisters and your brother
I've been missing all the little things
Like waking up each morning to the smile of your mother

The news did reach me, though
That you're about to have a daughter
I hope you've grown as a better man than me
Its the only wish I

Behind Closed DoorsWe stumbled on to something
without trying to seek it
But now that we have it
We're trying to keep it a secret

So when everyone's around
We try so hard not to make a sound
Our heads are lowered
We keep looking forward
To not look into each other's eyes

We try to act like strangers
To keep ourselves from dangers
Try not to grab attention
Don't need anyone to mention
That this facade is full of lies

Don't want to be a topic
People would like to discuss
No need for conversations
People talking about us

Holding this emotion back
Until it overflows and pours
You and I will always be
A love that exists only behind closed doors

Missing YouSince I woke up today
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.

It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.

I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.

So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".

But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.

Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you

Father's SeedIt all starts with seeds and soil
A hole in the ground, a layer of dirt
And a man given the job to protect from turmoil
Those little plants; keep them from hurt

He trades vows with mother earth
And a seed he starts to sow
Waiting patiently for a bud to be given birth
And promises to water and watch it grow

As days go on and sun beats down
Turning the man's neck red
Moving along to his whistling's sound
The plant's leaves start to spread

But something changes in the man
swears this isn't the plant he was asking for
Says he won't water it any more
And treats it like a burden on his floor

Days turn to weeks which turn to a year

If I write you a songEveryone is talking
About how you want to make it big
That you want to be a Rockstar
That you've already booked a gig

You've always been so beautiful
But never content with who you are
Think you deserve to have the spotlight
And to be married to a Star

They say that you want someone
who'll sing for you in front of the whole world
Who'll dedicate you all his lyrics
Who will scream you were his girl

What if I wrote you a song?
will it change the way you look at me?
I wonder if it'd take me like long
Can I use this love to form the perfect melody?
Use the rhythm that you give my heart
A fast tempo like the way you make it beat

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Couldn't Save Me

by ~IINegativeII, Feb 12, 2013, 8:02:16 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Mama if you find this
It means that it's too late.
I've fallen into death's abyss
I'm free of the life I hate.

Mama, this is my goodbye
Everything I've felt, till now, here in this note.
I wish I could tell you bye, looking in your eyes
But after this I plan to slit my throat.

Its ok, mama, some of us were born to fail.
Its what I've come to realize
Not every life's a fairy tale
But they'll keep feeding us those lies

Lies we're told so we keep trying to succeed
And we'll try till we're beaten and we're broken
We'll fall, we'll bruise and bleed
But the sorrow that we feel will stay unspoken

Well mama I'm already beyond shattered
And I have given up on life
I've already lost everything that mattered
Up to now I haven't lived, merely survived

But mama living hasn't been good
This ist the third time I try to kill myself
It's been a week that I haven't had food
This liquor keeps me alive but ruins my health

Mama I'm going straight to hell
I wish that you could save me
Pick me up like every time I fell
Hold me and say I'm still your baby

But there is no one who can save me
When I'm my own worst enemy
God has always been against me
Death awaits me eagerly

Please forgive me
I'm sorry I'm not strong
Just know its all on me
Don't think you raised me wrong

This is goodbye
I know its you calling on the phone
Please try not to cry
When you find me once you're home

Couldn't Save Meby ~IINegativeII

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

©2013 ~IINegativeII

Its been so long since I've written anything.
It took a while just to force this one out..lol
Enjoy!

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~DevvyBearLuvsU Apr 15, 2013 Hobbyist Artist

</3 This is good <3

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~IINegativeII Apr 22, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

u like it?

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~DevvyBearLuvsU Apr 30, 2013 Hobbyist Artist

I like all of your work dammit.

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~IINegativeII May 1, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

thanks

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~DevvyBearLuvsU May 1, 2013 Hobbyist Artist

No problemo
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~IINegativeII May 7, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

:3

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~FacePaintInRhyme Feb 13, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Wow, really beautiful in the darkest sort of ways. I very much enjoy reading your poetry! You have a very pointable style.

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~IINegativeII Feb 15, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

A pointable style? lol
what do u mean by that?

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~FacePaintInRhyme Feb 15, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Like, trademark. It's easy to point out.

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~IINegativeII Feb 25, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

and what exactly is my style though?
like..Im interested to know what u think xD

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