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If I write you a songEveryone is talking
About how you want to make it big
That you want to be a Rockstar
That you've already booked a gig

You've always been so beautiful
But never content with who you are
Think you deserve to have the spotlight
And to be married to a Star

They say that you want someone
who'll sing for you in front of the whole world
Who'll dedicate you all his lyrics
Who will scream you were his girl

What if I wrote you a song?
will it change the way you look at me?
I wonder if it'd take me like long
Can I use this love to form the perfect melody?
Use the rhythm that you give my heart
A fast tempo like the way you make it beat

Mask (Re-upload)For how long can I wear this Disguise
The hate is building inside
but can you see it through my eyes
I may wear this smile
but this face is full of Lies
My heart cries
and as it drowns in its own tears of sorrow
it slowly Dies

The beating slows...ends and moans
And gradually the glow...fades
A sudden depth of abyss and a certain roaring, a hiss
The pain, the lies, the hate, all surrounded by death's kiss

Clawing, eating, tearing away
Making it's way....through my skin
You should have known me, full of sin,
a shadow being, claiming to be me...only in cast
Behind this God damned mask

But who is me, if all I am
is who this mask

The End of the WorldI'm tired of hearing
"Its not the end of the world"
That I need to cheer up
That "she's only a girl"
But these people don't know
That I've tried to move on
But these feelings won't go
I don't like faking a smile
With every "Hello"
But goodbyes are the worst
Every time I feel like I'm cursed
I know that I overreacted
When you said that I wasn't your first
But you lied
And that's when I realized
That what I thought was divine
For you was just another time
Inside It felt like I'd die
I was enraged and I cried
But now that I've lost you
I'd die to again say that you're mine
So please look at me now
Say that we'll make it somehow
That you'll love

FatherI Hate You
That's the first thing you have to know
You've been gone most of my life
But your presence just doesn't seem to go

Your influence still haunts me
Like you're a ghost here that lingers
It hurts and it hinders
Feels like our lives
Are still wrapped around your fingers

I walk through the house looking down
Hoping for some sort of protection
Trying to avoid all these mirrors
I don't want to see my reflection

Because I look just like you
And when I look I just want to hurt myself
Breaking all these mirrors
Cursing your blood that runs through these cells

You're behind bars
dying in there on your own
I wish I could s

Can You Heal My HeartPlease don't leave me alone
But don't stand by too close
I'm scared of the silence
I'm being haunted by ghosts
The past lives in my head
Displaying where my problems arose
Walking down the same road as my father
Is what I'm scared of the most

Never had someone to guide me
Someone who'd show me the path
The only lessons I've had
Showed me to be controlled by my wrath
Little by little
Its been eating at my heart
But who needs to feel
When I'm only embraced by the dark

I need to rub alcohol on all my wounds
So I'll press this bottle to my lips
Every shot is medication
That helps my thoughts become eclipsed
I'll use my pills
To turn my brain a

Behind Closed DoorsWe stumbled on to something
without trying to seek it
But now that we have it
We're trying to keep it a secret

So when everyone's around
We try so hard not to make a sound
Our heads are lowered
We keep looking forward
To not look into each other's eyes

We try to act like strangers
To keep ourselves from dangers
Try not to grab attention
Don't need anyone to mention
That this facade is full of lies

Don't want to be a topic
People would like to discuss
No need for conversations
People talking about us

Holding this emotion back
Until it overflows and pours
You and I will always be
A love that exists only behind closed doors

Roses For the DeadI couldn't help but fall to my knees
Seeing your body in there
Laying still in the casket
I cried and didn't care who would stare
The pain in my chest
Kept growing harder to bear
Like a growing hole in my heart
Felt like my skin was starting to tear

Your face looked so different
From the one I that I knew
Your skin was so pale
It was cut..it was bruised
Your lips had turned white
with a few hints of blue
But the birthmark on your cheek
Made it clear this was you

Now I keep seeing your face
The way it looked when you died
It chases me through my dreams
Leaves me no place to hide
I know I could have saved you
If I would have listened or trie

Long Distance RelationshipWith everything that's inside of me,
I wish you would be here with me.
My heart is aching for your presence
A hole inside..to be filled only by your essence

I'll hope one day we'll get to meet,
At first sight our hearts will wildly beat
And the distance will be just a bad memory.
Accomplishing this dream will be so sweet

I already miss your voice,
The warmest, softest noise
To me it's like a melody,
A lullaby that's meant for me

You say I'm special, and I want to believe its true
but if I'm special, what are you?
You're pure perfection in my eyes,
A perfection in HIS eyes.

All I can say is: I MISS YOU.
And I promise you one d

Love is WarThey say love is a battlefield of war.
We want someone special and nothing more
Feels like an endless chore.
Can we spot the difference
between the normal and the special
someone who can take us out our shell
And make our hearts feel like we've fallen to a spell

Love is pain
That drives us all insane
A battlefield where instead of blood
Tears fall like the rain
But it's pain so unlike the usual
when we find the perfect person
an experience that's so beautiful

We all need someone to teach us how to love
someone who can give us mini heart-attacks
until our heart can't take enough
Leave our hair standing on its tips
every singl

Leaving the Nest(Daughter)

Daddy....this is so hard for me to say
feeling darkness within long days...
My tiny hands tremble...
thinking how to assemble...
these words without being afraid.
For the longest time I've been this empty shell.
Been dealing with my personal hell...
Tried finding another man's love....
given up on the game.
Now you've found another.....
When you look at her what do you see?
Because looking for too long....
in the end you're losing me

(Father)

Please give me your little hand
I know right now this is hard to understand
Let me wipe the tear from off your cheek
I know right now you feel so weak
Maybe things are going

Couldn't Save MeMama if you find this
It means that it's too late.
I've fallen into death's abyss
I'm free of the life I hate.

Mama, this is my goodbye
Everything I've felt, till now, here in this note.
I wish I could tell you bye, looking in your eyes
But after this I plan to slit my throat.

Its ok, mama, some of us were born to fail.
Its what I've come to realize
Not every life's a fairy tale
But they'll keep feeding us those lies

Lies we're told so we keep trying to succeed
And we'll try till we're beaten and we're broken
We'll fall, we'll bruise and bleed
But the sorrow that we feel will stay unspoken

Well mama I'm already beyond shattered
And I hav

Hating to Love youLife goes by
Its nearly the end of October
Eleven months since you left me
And I still can't seem to keep sober

Drink after drink
Living off of intoxication
Can't mend this broken heart
But its the best medication

Holding on to the past
Feels like I'm stuck in one place
Still being haunted by your voice
And that last look on your face

I'm starting to hate
Everything I once loved about you
Like the thickness of your lips
And how your eyes would shine blue

The sound of your voice
The accent when you'd pronounce my name
What I really hate
Is that no one can pronounce it the same

I hate that I love you
And can't seem to forge

YesterdayYesterday, life seemed to be going
In every direction
With many up and downs
Still to be considered perfection

No thoughts of growing up
Only had you in my vision
No responsibility or worries
About making a bad decision

It was so perfect..wasn't it?
Just laying in the grass
Holding on to your hand
Just watching the days pass

Yesterday was magical
There was happiness and bliss
Only breaking silence
When we gasped after a kiss

We never needed words
Everything could be felt with just a touch
The caressing of your skin
Told you I needed you so much

Was yesterday prefect only for me?
Was I enjoying it by myself?
Tell me why d

Missing YouSince I woke up today
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.

It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.

I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.

So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".

But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.

Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you

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Cruel IntentionsI seem to be a part..of what's now become a dying breed
A poet who can say just the right words to take your breath away and make it hard for you to breathe
Every word is perfectly calculated to make your heart stop and fills it with sensations.
And every girl has always been a target..I approach with the cruelest of intentions

Every word becomes a tool..I use to touch your soul
After that it only takes a glance...and your heart will lose control
And when your heart starts wildly beating...and you start heavily breathing
l will know your body is mine for the taking..to start feeding

When I lay down the first verse..your lust will star

In my Father's StepsForgive me Father...for I have Sinned
I denied you....And let myself get lost within
Tried to pretend your blood wasn't in me
But right now it just keeps begging to be set free

It was this blood that always kept me strong
Every time a person left...it was what let me move along
Well...Maybe it's more like...I pushed them all away
Maybe this blood remembers...that every one will eventually betray

So tonight I'll let it out..and I'll follow in your steps
I'll have anything and anyone I want..just like you had always meant
Maybe that's the reason that you cursed me with this gift
Yeah..I can make anyone fall....at the price of my own

I'm content with LosingI've been cursed....I'm condemned
But I still pretend..and keep acting content
Because these lies..are all I have left
I've been pretending a smile..since the day that you left
Because pretending is the only thing I learned to do well
With a smile that wont leave..and the lying that you taught me as well.
That's the only thing that still keeps me alive
Holding on to those lies...just waiting for my death to arrive
Well let's face it..There's nothing left to live for
You were my life...my future..And I let you slip through that door
And the only curse that I Have
Is always ending up broken in half
So I guess I'll always live with

Inside a Writer's HeadThey wont leave me alone..these words keep haunting my head
Running around in circles..they leave me restless in my bed
So I go look for a pen..that I link to my pain
And I start draining my brain...as I let the ink flow through my veins

The emotions..turn into words..and arrange themselves in rhyme
And the pain...read from these words..can make my lines sound so sublime
But in truth I'm just loosing my mind..these words are the pain..I can't leave behind
All the sorrow they hide...sometimes its hard to see..all the double meaning entwined

This is the truth of what hides inside a writer's head
Words that form from dread...arranged so

Losing HeavenWhat happened to the heaven in which I used to believe
What happened to..that happiness...I prayed never to leave
It seem that since you stopped smiling my way..all I can ever perceive
Is grief....it deceives...And I just get no relief

And it feels like this happiness is going on a steady decline
Instead of heaven I'm going to hell...since you're no longer mine
And your smile that would shine...can no longer be my lifeline
Even if it's divine..and brings chills down my spine..
If it belongs to someone else..it wont make me feel fine

I lost my opportunity..now your smile belongs to someone else
And every time I see you with him I kee

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by ~IINegativeII, Jan 3, 2013, 4:12:02 PM
Literature / Poetry / Family Life / Free Verse

Hello my son
I wonder how you have been
Not many news come from outside
In this cell that I'm in

But I'm hoping
That you have been fine
Can't recall since I last saw you
It's impossible to keep track of time

Despite all that I've sent you
There's been no reply to my letters
Are you ashamed of your father?
Is it because I'm chained by these fetters?

I miss you, son
I miss your sisters and your brother
I've been missing all the little things
Like waking up each morning to the smile of your mother

The news did reach me, though
That you're about to have a daughter
I hope you've grown as a better man than me
Its the only wish I have as your father

Do what I couldn't
And take care of your family
Be a better man than me
And do everything I knew that you could be

Son, I'm not sure if you still read my letters
Or If they're just thrown away
But in the chance that you're still reading
There is something that I just need to say

My time has already come
That I must tell you goodbye
I want to ask your forgiveness
Before Its my time to die

So if you can forgive me
Please reply to this letter
Even if I have to meet my maker
This will make everything better

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~SobDontCry Jan 13, 2013 Student Traditional Artist

Like I said senior, amazing.

~IINegativeII Jan 14, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

thanks freshman...

=Ninefiftin Jan 4, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

This one is really good.

~IINegativeII Jan 7, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Thanks.
Im glad u like it

=Ninefiftin Jan 8, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

You're welcome ^^

~IINegativeII Jan 8, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

It's been a while

~CuddleSlut17 Jan 3, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I have no words expect wow. I really like this one.

~IINegativeII Jan 7, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Thanks

the original idea for this..was actually quite different..to how it turned out.

~Contradictory55 Jan 3, 2013 Student Writer

This is a really good one

~IINegativeII Jan 7, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Im glad u like it

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