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Keep staring at that mirror
Until disgust starts bursting from your gaze
Feel your stomach turning upside down
Tell yourself you're just going through a phase
Watch the bloody tears run down your cheek into your mouth
Witness how bitter it all tastes
The burst of all the pain you've been feeling
Is what's controlled you these past days

There is nothing more that you can say
Nothing to cure the cuts left by the blade
Alcohol can't heal you
Or erase the scars that you have made
Long sleeves can't hide the skin you bruise
But it's up to you to choose
Let your blood run down the sink
Or let the floor collect all the blood you lose

Will you always choose to hide
Is your safest place behind these lies
Don't you dare be surprised
When you wake up to realize
Your true self lies beyond the skin
One Day you'll be Crucified for all your sins
People think that death is easy
But it's when the torture will begin

You lost yourself when you were young
Can you feel the water crash
against the walls inside your lungs
Everywhere you see just strangers
And you wonder if that's who you'll die among
All that anger that's bottled up
Why do you keep on biting your tongue
Why do you pretend
You know you're scared of dying young

There goes another day, another hour
Disappearing by the second
You hide behind that smile like a coward
A mask can't smile but it can fake it
Like a grave with wilted flowers
A corpse waiting to be dissected
Will this always be the life of ours
We're so scared of death
But getting closer by the second
Behind Fake Smiles
I have to admit, I kind of hate this poem
But i needed a new piece to post
it has been far too long since my last post
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The Devil Speaks in Whispers
talking straight into my ear
In the distance Angels screaming
but their words I just can't hear
And I wish that I could make out
At least one word that they say
But it seems that once again
the Devil will have his way

Clouds wont seem to leave me
I'm always followed by the rain
my shadow seems to stalk me
And keeps whispering my name

Trying not to lose my senses
I keep myself in check
But I can feel a breath
Sliding through my neck

If I say my prayers
And just be honest with myself
will It save my soul
Or protect me from this hell
I'm starting to lose control
I can feel it everyday
Something's taking over me
The Devil will have his way

The sunlight won't come near me
Darkness takes its toll on my brain
It seems I lost my senses
All I can feel now is Pain

I know I'm insignificant
I know I'm just a Speck
Will never amount to anything
I'll always be a wreck

But I've said my prayers
And I couldn't save myself
I condemned my soul
I'm stuck here in this hell
I don't know who's in control
I've lost myself for days
He finally took over me
The Devil had his way
They wont leave me alone..these words keep haunting my head
Running around in circles..they leave me restless in my bed
So I go look for a pen..that I link to my pain
And I start draining my brain...as I let the ink flow through my veins

The emotions..turn into words..and arrange themselves in rhyme
And the pain...read from these words..can make my lines sound so sublime
But in truth I'm just loosing my mind..these words are the pain..I can't leave behind
All the sorrow they hide...sometimes its hard to see..all the double meaning entwined

This is the truth of what hides inside a writer's head
Words that form from dread...arranged so they can be perfectly read
And a chain.. eternally links this pen to my pain...and as word by word the sorrow drains
It helps me sustain...and prevents this fragile brain..from going insane
If I told you I was writing this
Inside someone else's room
Would it make you upset
Would you start asking me who
or....
Would you think wrong of me
Would all your respect be gone
Or would you look right through me
know I never moved on
But...
I need to move on
Can't be relying on this liquor
Hate it all I want
But maybe this is why I need her
And
I'm trying not to need you
Because you no longer need me
But even If I have her
I still don't feel free
So...
Can you tell me what I'm supposed to do
How can I be with her when I dream of you
Because..,
she seems perfect but I've seen her through
If she has one flaw it's that she's not you
And...
I Keep making comparisons inside my head
She kisses me but I long for your lips instead
And...
I can't believe where this has led
Whisper your name as she tries to lure me into her bed
But...
What am I supposed to say
When I feel fucked up and can't act Okay
No...
Am I supposed to push her away
Because I just want to run to you
But she's asking me to stay
And..
I wish it was that easy
But pushing her away doesn't mean
that you'll still need me
No...
She still can't take your place
Looking at her but always imagining your face
So...
What am I supposed to do
Teach me to pretend
And believe that I don't love you
Then...
Maybe that way I'll be alright
I won't think of you
When she asks me to spend the night
BELIEVE ME I'M LYING
Blah, I liked this poem as I was starting it off.
I wanted to try new and different things...but then the poem just got so long that i felt it was dragging on...and so I ended it kind of abruptly.
I dont really like the final product anymore.
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I'm tired of seeing the same journal on my page..
but I have nothing to say..so I'm going to post some song lyrics I really love.

Motionless In White- Bananamontana

Paralyzed... by the envy of the night... 
I am lost without you here.
And outside it looks like rain, 
Say goodbye for the last time.
For the last time I'll bleed myself dry tonight.
We are all alone.
And nothing I could ever write would help you understand this life.
There's so much beauty when scarlet eyes lay lost in all the city lights.
The wax will drip as so as blood, 
Romance is dead and all is lust.
Your are the water in my lungs, we've lost it... 

And nothing I could ever write would help you understand this life.
There's so much beauty when scarlet eyes lay lost in all the city lights.
The wax will drip as so as blood, 
Romance is dead and all is lust.
Your are the water in my lungs, we've lost it now!



Motionless In White- Sinematic 

The wall that I have built to keep you out is starting to rust
Because everything around me just reminds me of us.
I am an addict for dramatic, black hair and pale skin.
Yet I'm still collecting bones, but that's why closets are for skeletons

Undress your body, hold it over my head
Because you know that if you knock then
I'll always let you in
I've been numb for so long that I forgot how to feel
So I don't care if it will break my heart,
Just fuck me till we disappear

You said you'd never hurt me
Now this is all that we have left
You were supposed to save me
From myself

The wall that I have built to keep you out has crumbled to dust
And I hope that everything you see reminds you of us
I've been gone for so long that I forgot what is real
So I don't care if I will miss you, please just fuck me till we disappear

You never said you'd hurt me
Now this is all that we have left
You were supposed to save me
From myself

You said you'd never love me
But look how hard someone can fall
I was supposed to save you
From yourself

Now the sky is on fire and we lie wide awake
There is no other way than to make this mistake
We can't control who we hurt so we fuck the pain away
So put all of your pride, all your guilt into me
And suck the breath from my lungs and I'll swallow your hate
We can't control how we hurt so we fuck the pain away


Bring Me The Horizon - Seen It All Before

Every second's soaked in sadness
Every weekend is a war
And I'm drowning in the déjà vu
We've seen it all before

I don't wanna do this by myself
I don't wanna live like a broken record
I've heard these lines a thousand times
And I've seen it all before

Are we close enough?
There is something I must confide
I think we've lost our touch
There's no sparkle in those eyes

What an awful mess I've made
There's nothing left to save

Every second's soaked in sadness
Every weekend is a war
And I'm drowning in the déjà vu
We've seen it all before

I don't wanna do this by myself
I don't wanna live like a broken record
I've heard these lines a thousand times
And I've seen it all before

(There's nothing in the air tonight...)

Every second's soaked in sadness
Every weekend is a war
And I'm drowning in the déjà vu
We've seen it all before

I don't wanna do this by myself
I don't wanna live like a broken record
I've heard these lines a thousand times
And I've seen it all before

I'm sorry, no... it's not enough
We shouldn't feel a love so painfully
It hurts right to the touch
I know it stings, I know this cuts
And I wish I could agree with you
But fuck this love, it's not enough

It's not enough...
It's not enough...


Alesana- Early Mourning

Last night I forgot
How the sound of your voice whispered sweet
Goodbyes,
Your eyes, left to die
I'm alone to understand why

Why not one more night?
One last kiss goodbye?
My sweet love tonight
I hope the stars
Still spell out your name
Where you are...

Kiss my closing eyes
Help me sleep
Without you I'm so lost
Tonight I cry
Tell me why
I can't live without your warm embrace

Why not one more night?
One last kiss goodbye?
My sweet love tonight
I hope the stars still
Spell out your name
Where you are...

I close my eyes and you are everything I see
Goodbye

Goodbye to you my love
I won't forget you
I'll see you soon
Goodbye my love
Goodbye to you my love
I won't forget you
Let me live


  • Mood: Lazy
  • Listening to: Falling in Reverse
  • Drinking: Monster

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Manny
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
The story of my life...isn't written in a Book
It has no catchy song...with an impeccable Hook
But its been recorded in the memories..of the people that I've Met
And when I come to die, I hope, at least one person..wont Forget

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velvetfingertips Featured By Owner 3 days ago  New member Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the watch! :heart:
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RealTRgamer Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the Link fav! :)
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NightFoxTsukiko Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2014  New member Student Artist
They found my phone c: i'll text you when the school gives it to me in an hour~ just thought i'd tell you.
I guess whoever took it out of my bag told my bus driver that they'd return it if they remained anonymous to the police officer..
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Healene Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you!
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CanUSpellMyName Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave..
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